i am so nt going sch on next monday. coz i planning to ton outside on sunday nite aft my work. and i planning to go pub/clubbing on the weekend nite too. I feel lky wanna go wild be4 sep. seriously i am so nt into study now... shd i go ton or clubbing on weekend?????

toda , i was suppose to PON my history pre-prelim paper de, meet rachel in the morning at cck us interchange and we reached sch at 8.25+.. I miscounted the timing for history, the end i seat for the history paper, but i juz did Q1 (a), (b), (c) onli and the paper is damn easy lah coz we gt do be4.. if lky that still pre-prelim for wat sia... then i can say i sure failing my BIO AND HISTORY pre-prelim paper le hhaaz. then during the 1st lesson of sch which is HISTORY. I slept for the whole lesson coz i am tired from work ytd. then had a MIX RICE during recess time and i drink 3 bottles of green tea the whole day. and i was abit angry of the chem teacher lah coz he spread out the class in 2 gps. 1 is the ppl who can do well and the other are ppl who dun can do well at all , i in gp 2 lah.. i prefer the gp 2 teacher more than gp1 teacher. i happy but i dun lky the way he say abt the gp onli.

aft sch, I had my eng oral and it is abt SHOPPING. i did ver badly in reading as usual lah.. but the pic and convent. part i felt i do better than in prelim eng oral. Hope i can get 30/40 for it and it will help me alot of passing my eng olevel..

I toked to joey and joanna during the break be4 oral and aft oral, credit to them make my day so fun and "high" . Love them , specially joanna "ghost FACES". hhaaz X) cheer up ppl..

16aug, is my ex bday. Sad that cant meet u toda coz of the work.. I will meet u some other day in next week to pass u the present.X)

On sat, went to take the emath stupid pre-prelim paper. It realli stupid as it makes me more stressful from sch and Study. I DUN WAN TO GO SC2H EVERYDAY. seriously, if can ar.. i will go drink everyday and try to end me life in the super happily way. I had tot of doin some stupid stuff sometime as i cant take more stress from the sch.. When i was doin the pre-prelim paper.. The paper is so hard that i have already lost ard 40/100 marks be4 i hand in the paper. do u think i can even pass the paper?? no way. And i juz getting more lazy to study all the olevel sub AND i am thinking to drop all my sub and u noe.. juz end my life in the way that it wont make any1 sad abt me.. may be juz kill all the ppl who cares abt me 1st be4 i die, so i will be the bad guy and ther was no people think abt me.X).

duno how to destress from my study and sch.. May be i do sth makes me happy. erm.......... badminton?! but all my bad-mates are preparing for olevel.... or... shd go clubbing but hm.........duno wat to do.. its better i shd nt come to singapore at the 1st place. I hate my parents brough me to here and hate ENG, hate SCH, HATE THE ART TEACHER, HATE EVERY1 IN THE WORLD WHO MADE ME SAD AND DEPRESS. #$%$%^%^& .

Tmr is my eng olevel oral. Wish me gd luck. I think even i have all the gd luck in the world, i still cant pass my eng oral , my olevel eng paper de. Thx god, i going to ITE, may be worst.. GO ST8 work aft olevel wif the score of 30+. X) . Juz wish me all the best aft MY olevel . I nid ur luck for my future, hope can have a ver smooth and good life even.

having fever this few days. I hate that coz it make crazy.

ytd,worked in sgflyer while i was having fever and bodyache. I have made a few mistakes during working. That y i dun lky fever, it can make ppl do the wrong thing and think the wrong way.. I dun eat much ytd, coz i feel lky vomiting the whole day and i went home half way sch...X/ missed my BIO, MATHz pre-prelim paper. Sian....

I was playing wif my dogs juz now.They are cute lah. hhaaz XD...

hahaz. still have lky 2 months to olevel. I felt so stressful of the thing inside of my mind. Ytd went to drink with wansia they all. This is the 1st time i felt so relaxing in my life this yr. I threw all the stuff right behind my head and i love this feeling. I was abit of drunk ytd, but i still can walk st8. THX GOD!.

I quarrel wif art teacher on last thursday again. erm.. i juz summory the whole thing lah...
at start, i keep attitude her outside the art room....
She " y u give me this kind of attitude?"
me " coz u always shoot me in every art lesson"
then fight fight fight...
she " i tot u were different from the guys inside the class, ur attitude was so gd last yr. And i tot u can score well in art. U can draw compare wif some ppl inside........I was so disappointed on u. "
when i heard i felt nth in my mind.....=.=
then juz fight awhile , she give me the feeling of crying.. i felt abit bad of doin this. ya....

this is 1 of thing in my mind.. I duno wat shd do and wat i shd react. i have heard many different kind of suggestion but I JUZ DUNO WAT I SHD DO. Ther are too many things in my head and i so regret of wat i did to some ppl........

I am watching HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 when i taking my rest from ytd at home. It was my 10+ times watching it.It realli cool and nice. "YUMMY". ya hahaz..i goin rest now. cya~~

ytd, i dun went sch due to my back pain. It juz happened on monday afternoon and i think becoz of the position i sit on monday ba.. if nt may be is becoz i stand too long on sunday and sat?? hahaz. nvm rested a day and it oso give me time to relax myself.I felt i ver stress of the Pre-prelim test, when other sch dun have this thing at all but coz our MS LOW, it made the teachers and students to stresst of the test lah... then oso becoz i getting my chinese olevel result on next wednesday.Honestly, i preparing to go for the 2nd test of chinese olevel at the end of the yr. I felt i dun do ver well on my paper.X( . And it makes me to rmb that my ex promised me to study tgt for my olevel and take flyer wif me, but then the end the promises gone becoz of the break up during march holiday.............. feeling abit of stupid of doin that lah. but it was damn long time ago. so JUZ FORGET IT.

toda, i went to school , nth much happened. A another boring day in sch. I dun feel lky goin school anymore sia. It too stresstful and stupid lah. I dun have much mood to study and i have been forcing myself to study everyday. it makes me more stresstful. And i gt so many things in my minds now, and i duno find who to tok to. It abt sth happened in march lah. i think ppl will noe , if u are close wif me. Tonitez, went to library study wif Pinxiu, hahaz.. keep disturb me in the mac when we were having our dinner..X) i am working tmr in Singapore flyer aft my sch.. going to have fun at ther. And fri is NDP celebration. It looks bored and lolz to me coz my sch always have the same performance every year and i planning nt goin to sch becoz i am nt feeling to cele NPD in sch. I prefer watching fire work at the city hall lah... lolzX)

A song from marley and me. The last part aft marley dead.

toda, cme lesson. Teacher have say sth from the CME file. It abt starfish..

Ther was a old man walking on the beach, and he saw a ver young boy throw starfish to the sea. So, the old man ask the boy "wat are u doing now". The young boy reply" I am throwing the starfish back to the sea coz they are dying under the sea". The old felt thing that the young boy was doin, it ver useless so he told the boy" there are thousand and thousand of starfish are dying all over the world. It did not have any changes of wat u are doing now." The boy answered, " as least i make a change to those starfishes in their life."

this story is so meanful that i already have forgotten of wat i wanna be. In the world , there are thousand , even ten thousand of dogs in the world. If 40% of the dogs were stray dog. U can count that how many dogs were homeless and loveless. They are borned to be love from the human or as least from having a life. This makes me wanna become a VET and i wanna to have my own dogs & cats farm. So i can provide the stray a better home and at least get love in their whole life.. as the story i tokin abt starfish, I wanna be the young boy, make something different in others' life. I have 4 dogs in hk last time. I have to send them to the dog farm becoz i went here to study. I still rmb of their faces and the time i was playing wif them. They have different character, the oldest dog is ver guai and mature. She can behave ver well in my hse even infront of strangers. the 2nd 1 , she can scared of anything! even she scared to walk out of my hse. She was the replacement of my 1st dog even appear in my life. The dog's name is "Boddy" i spell correct??? he was a ver naughty dog and he get jealous easily when my father played wif me. He is my childhood buddy. He came to our family when i was 4 or 5 yrs old. He realli behave lky a child, jumpin ard the hse running ard . Our family have a nice time wif him tgt for 5-6 yrs. He died in a accident. I still rmb when i heard the news of he dying in the accident, i cried.This was the 1st time i cried for dog and this also the 1st time i lost a ver close buddy in my life. Let's go back to the 3rd dog, She was super naughty and playful. She lky to bite things and u can ask her to run and jump the whole day but she wont even get tired.. In the daily life, u can imaging that ther are 3dogs in the hse , 1 ver guai and the other was hiding somewher afraid of sth happen to her and the last 1 was running ard and playing a fool wif the balls. hhaahhaz (miss them)..

7-8 yrs over, i think they are all dead...... In total of my 19 yrs lifes, I had lost 4 of my super close buddy in hk and 1 in singapore. Dun ask me abt the 1 in singaporea, i dun wan to tok abt it at all. It was damn sad lah. For ppl who noe me ver well, i still have 2 dogs in my hse now. "Ah boi" & "ah girl". i found them at the stresss where near my hse in bukit panjang last time. They all have the same character as my previous dogs. I LOVE THEM. when i typing this post, they are sleeping beside me on my bed. ahahz they are too sweet , they always w8 for me at the dinning room for me to reach home. Ah girl even cant sleep well when i went to prefect camp and nt coming home at nite. X) they are realli ver sweet to me. When i sad, they will pei me tgt emo. They love to eat wat i eating, specially mac!! hhhaazzz